When we were younger, I used to always love your smile. Whenever I looked into your eyes I saw happiness, hope, and more importantly......I saw affection. You always managed to brighten my day, ignite my flame. Your reassurance, the soothe in your voice, made me listen. You gave me the strength to move forward. Your laugh made me feel as though all of my problems had dissipated. That infectious laugh, managed to lift my spirits. It somehow removed me from this existence I call reality and placed me into what I considered a perfect world. I felt safe, and that's when I discovered that you were my best friend. A few years roll past and we grow apart. We stop talking to each other as much, and I start to feel as though maybe you've moved on. When we start to talk again, I feel great, reborn. I feel like we can pick up where we left off in our friendship, but I notice that you changed. I can't tell if its for better or for worse, but there is an obvious change in you. A simple alteration that isn't easy to point out or recognize. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but you seemed as though you lost something. You still have that same smile that used to give me warmth. You still showed the same amount of love and friendship that you had for me many years ago, but there is something about you that's odd. Over time, our friendship grew stronger. Our bond is unbreakable. Over the years, our trust in each other has solidified. Our bond was invincible. I tell you everything, and you tell me everything. You listen to me and my problems, but I can't say that I do the same for you. You say that you're fine. You say that you're loving life right now, but I can tell that there's something you're not telling me. I've never noticed before, but I complain to you about everything. I tell you how much my life is in shambles, and yet you still manage to listen and tell me that you love me. You never tell me to stop or to quit whining, you just sit there and listen. That makes you a true friend and it shows me that you love me. You stay up with me whenever I feel alone. You watch over me, you protect me like I'm your first priority. I never once thanked you. I never once returned the favor. I never asked you how you felt, or if you needed anything. You were a good friend to me, while I just sat back and assumed that everything was okay with you. That night, when you told me that you felt alone......when you told me that you felt unloved, neglected, forgotten, I was crushed. I couldn't believe that you, the one who made my life worth living, was feeling this way. I didn't know what to do, how to act or respond. I just sat there and reflected on all the times we had. I wanted to help you, but I knew I couldn't. I wanted to make you feel better, make the pain go away, but I know that I couldn't. You became a ghost. You aren't the same girl I loved seeing everyday. You were a lonely spirit lost in forever darkness, and I vowed that I'd bring you back. I fought and I fought, and finally I was able to bring the happiness back to you smile. That's what had changed about you......your smile. it was missing happiness, but now I've brought it back and you weren't a ghost any longer. I've come to realize that I'm not the only one with problems. I now understand that you also have your own issues. The only difference between you and I, is that you're stronger than I am. You handle things better than I ever will and I've learned that I need to respect you more. You mean the world to me. I couldn't function without you, and I know that you are the person who loves me for me.
Everyone has at least one friend, but finding someone you can call your best friend is hard to do. Someone to pick you up when you fall. Someone who will fight for you night and day, a best friend will always stand by your side no matter what. I'm fortunate to have someone in my life that I can call my best friend. There isn't a day where I don't think about how lucky I am to have this person in my life. I found my best friend in this world.....did you find yours?
A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.
A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walk out.
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